Our Choices Make Our Day

Choices. Every day I make them. Every day I choose which direction to step. Forward. Back. It's my choice.

Some of my choices have not appeared to be wise. In fact, some of them were downright ridiculous! But, they were my choices. Mine to live with. Mine to deal with. Mine to face the consequences. In dealing with my choices I have grown. Sometimes, I've fallen down. Sometimes, I've learned to fly. The choice has been mine.

In life, we are constantly presented choices that would lure us into different directions, entice us into changing course, seduce us into changing colours. The option is ours whether we make choices that support us on our journey, keep us focused on our path or draw us into someone else's course.

For me, I was often a passive observer in my own life, making choices that drew me from my course. Often, because I did not have a clear direction, the choices I didn't make had more impact than the one's I did make. As a passive observer, I let myself be swayed from standing true to me, myself and I. I let myself go and rather than hold onto my values, beliefs, principles, I let my hungry heart and aching arms lead me into the belief that someone else could ease the ache. Someone else could make me happy. As I leaned into someone else's story, I chose to let go of myself and lost my way.

In my life, I have often chosen a course not because it took me towards my goals and dreams, but rather because it took me towards a man. In my choices to find my happiness in someone else, I let go of my truth -- no one else can fill my hungry heart's yearnings for love. Only I can complete me.

When I went to Choices, I had a pretty clear idea about who I was – I just needed some tools to help me express myself in my own unique way so that I could have more of what I wanted in life. Through my contract, I am a fearless woman, I have come to live this one wild and precious life fearlessly in love with all of me. My awareness has given me the gift of knowing my self-defeating games, of recognizing my tapes and the understanding of my power to stay in the moment and not let the past be my present.

Today, I know who I am. I know what I want in my life. No longer a passive observer, I choose to actively engage in my life. To eagerly leap into each moment, or as Ray Bradbury calls it in “The Zen of Writing” ‘ looking for landmines to explode when I get out of bed’ so that I can explode misconceived notions about who I am supposed to be as I become all that I am meant to be when I live my contract fearlessly being me, exactly the way I am.

The question is: Are you living your contract being all that you can be when you let go of fear that who you are is not enough?